10/11/25
feeling: inspired!
watching: Emongg
latest obsession: overwatch for once
last song played: Childish War by WXS
current weather: sunny, 54°F
wanted to talk about my journal ecosystem for the upcoming year / the end of this year as i finally indulged ** (buckled up and asked for one) in a hobonichi!!
i also got a nice midori notebook that i deco'd and i'm obsessed with::
i also have my sketchbooks that double as junk journals i wanna finish! im soo close to finishing my one sketchbook - i've had it for five years now. please excuse how beat up it is LOL
my new one is already a little beat up but we don't talk about that. ANYWAY. next !! my sticker book and my idea journal. i need to organize my sticker book better and actually put more sticker sheets in there but i've been LAZYYYYYYY omg. my idea journal has been kind of doubling as a to-do journal lately but tbh i don't mind:')
it's been inspiring me to actually journal instead of on here., which is helpful. not that these entries aren't helpful. it's just sometimes i need to do it for myself T__T
take care y'all!!!
MWAH!
10/06/25
feeling: SORE?
watching: Hannah Alonzo
latest obsession: project sekai who's surprised
last song played: Sick of House! by オゾン
current weather: sunny., 70°F
so where do i even start.
i guess like.... Let me just say. If you think writing fiction to process one's trauma is a crime, you probably might wanna unfollow. Just a suggestion.
And when i say fiction, i don't mean trauma porn of incest that fully sexualizes the issue at hand. It's a crime. We all know this.
i mean more like people writing about incest as a crime. or about fauxcest as a kink and the two adults consenting and engaging in the FAKE, CONSENSUAL SEX ACT to help reclaim their trauma... these things. thats what i mean. but also, if people wanna sexualize their trauma in the privacy of their own heads, keep it unpublished, keep it behind closed doors, we can't criminalize thoughts. it's truly just the Act of Inflicting Sexual Trauma or trying to Convince Others to Be Aroused and Enjoy the Sexualization of Trauma. thats an issue.
so now that ive prefaced this.
i got cancelled for writing a consensual trauma kink scene. LOL. lost my closest friend group bc of it. got shamed and borderline bullied bc of it too. its like y'all pride yourselves on being so kind and caring and open yet this? is how you treat me? Alright cool i guess.
i understand people being upset by incest being the prompt on the kinktober list. but i didnt even write incest. like i said, i wrote a fauxcest scene that was between two consenting adults. it was about the shame of wanting something related to your trauma. it was about the guilt of asking for it, being unable to get off.
it was a very Personal Vent piece actually. BUT WHATEVER!
theyre not worth my time anyway LOLLLLLL They can rot :)
otherwise... it's almost time for mizu5 on EN in pjsk. thats fucked up. really weird tbh. im so???????? HUH?
what do you mean its been a year since the ominous bell tolling.
thats fucked up if true.
so, yeah, that'll be brutal to even try to secure t10k but i gotta LOL i might not be able to oshi grief WAILS.
my haruka card i just got....... :(
haruka:)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARUKA! hehehe:)
okay i'm done yapping i think. BYEEE MWAH TAKE CARE
10/02/25
feeling: pretty fucking bad
watching: LilSimsie
latest obsession: depression mode Sorry Dudes
last song played: Anti-You! by MMJ
current weather: sunny., 59°F
i don't know what to say besides im doing fucking AWFULLLLLLLLL today.
i wanna vent about it but im having a Hashtag Paranoia moment so i'll do so in my diary or in my digital one later... maybe i'll splurge on a nicer goodnotes template (2 dollars MAXIMUM!) etsy here we come.
my neokyo package came. it was quite a haul im very happy:3
i also cleaned my desk finally!!! i think i mentioned this? in a september entry? but yeah, finally done! picture here:
isn't it CUTE? (say yes. yes it's very cute wren)
anyway! lots of pictures this entry. hope you enjoy this lil visual diary entry LOLLL take care even tho i'm drowning :P we'll get thru this ! YAY!
