09/28/25
feeling: ANXIOUSSSSSS
watching: Brooke Sharks
latest obsession: genshin... pjsk... but mainly finishing these damn fics T__T
last song played: Tokyo Teddy Bear by Leo/Need
current weather: sunny, 71°F
WADSAHJGK Im so nervous for kinktober to start !!! OMFG!!
this is my word count for the month.... i only got through about 6 fics so this makes sense tbh. 4 more to go!! I CAN DO THIS!! AAAAAAAAA!! im so scared omfg T__T
ive been okay tho... just trying to get thru these next few months! i have a lot of stuff to do in pjsk and thats kind of exciting too :D LOTS OF OTHER FICS TO WRITE ONCE IM DONE W/ KINKTOBER... which is nice in terms of staying busy :O but im just very AUGH. a lot to do before the next semester........
it's alright. i finally cleaned my desk and that made me feel a lot better. then i have...? some pcs to organize next in terms of room stuff? also posters to put up? hmm.... thinking :haruThink:
anyway. its just busy busy busy! but im well. i hope you all are too :D ILYSM!!
09/19/25
feeling: UNMOTIVATED WAILS.
watching: Markiplier
latest obsession: genshin unfortunately
last song played: Creed by SKZ
current weather: sunny, 81°F
so i'm still stuck at 3/10 kinktober fics. and i;m a little freaked out about it all.
i need to have at least four done by saturday. hopefully 7 or 8 done by next friday. the unfortunate thing is next friday is the 26th LOL. so i need to keep grinding this shit out. omfg.
i might have to sacrifice my collab fic and do it at a later date because in all honesty idk if i'll be able to finish all of my works by then if i keep this in the lineup. it'll be too many words to write, to put it simply. and while i'm less busy this year, i definitely think i have a lot more to do in terms of therapy since i started emdr up again....
Sighs.
so i'm just hoping to grind a bunch of these out and also clean my desk and also write my friend a letter and also do a bunch of other things. i'm a bit overwhelmed but also not. i'm doing everything i wanted to do when i was working. so it's Good. it's just A Lot.
anyway. i wrote 3k ish last week and i'm on track to write over 1k this week, maybe 2k if i'm lucky. i'm just. Finish This First Fic In The Lineup. Then We Ball.
Yeah? Yeah. Take care chat:)
09/13/25
feeling: ugh. Kind of frustrated but not really ?
watching: Law and Order: SVU
latest obsession: STILL WRITING THESE DAMN FICS. also watching anime w/ my pals :D
last song played: Sick of House!
current weather: cloudy, 66°F
ughfjkhlds. Hi everyone. 2/10 kinktober fics done. see i;m most worried bc what i did last year was one long fic and then nine, 1k~ish drabbles. but this time i have Two long fics. a collab with a friend and then a fic i've had in my drafts since. god. wait let me check. okay i remade it this year but its definitely from all the way back in 2022 i;m Sure of it. i'm sure of it. it's a chanlix fic from wayyy back in the day AND THE PROBLEM IS. IT'S FOR DAY ONE. I'm halfway into this one with two of my drabbles already done. the collab halfway.. 1/3 of the way finished... and then another drabble started.
i have 10 to do in total. which. yeah. That's a lot. probably a little over 15k... somewhere upwards of 20k words. i'm trying Very hard to get everything finished by each due date but oufhffh maybe if i'm a fic or two short... don't say damn y'all. don't say damn.
OTHERWISEEEE i finished wednesday. definitely need to update my medialog but not today. LOL. i'm playing pjsk w/ my friend later !! and we're gonna call and hang out and i'm excited since i missed our last scheduled hang out. WAILS. i feel awful about it still but i'm glad we're gonna be able to hang out today !!!!!!!! i'm very excited :D aND THEN I HAVE ANOTHER SCHEDULED HANG OUT W/ MY FRIEND ON TUESSSDAYYYY im so excited for each of these. i'm hoping i can get some friends to watch fmab soon because Wails. Ultimate Comfort Show
(i have problems. I am very well aware)
(at least the other ones are sports animes. Well. and Over the Garden Wall....)
(not to mention Parasite 2019.)
moving on.
maybe i can get my friends to watch otgw . Or parasite. Holy shit huge brain moment.
its fall! it's time for my favorite season (horror and pumpkin spice)
i hope you all enjoy it as well:) take care!!!
09/09/25
feeling: determined if anything
watching: Wednesday S2
latest obsession: getting these damn fics done
last song played: Spring Storm by VBS
current weather: sunny, 55°F
KINKTOBER TIME! i've been fucking grinding. oh my god i've been on my grind. i need to keep grinding so i'm quickly writing this. well.
we had to put tulip down. i feel. very numb. i;m distracting myself with impossible writing projects. it's. hard. very hard. i'm extremely sore and tired and it's weird without her here. it's quiet. i don't like the quiet without her.
i'm sorry gg. i hope she's happy with you
otherwise besides the fact i quit my job? i'm gonna apply for more receptionist positions. sedetary stuff. um. i'm jsut gonna keep writing. iDK BYEEEE ILY GUYS SORRY FOR THE SHORT ENTRY I NEED TO GET BACK ON MY GRIND EVEN THO IT'S LIKE 10AM
09/05/25
feeling: sleepy tired. anxious too LOL
watching: Law & Order: SVU
latest obsession: uma musume
last song played: Needs by Versache
current weather: windy, 68°F
soo... it's been a little bit. LMFAOOO i'm really sorry T__T
my dog had surgery. and that sounds like the most bullshit excuse ever but it's true. this is the third week of his recovery and my computer died. and when i say died i mean like the screen wouldn't turn on. it wouldn't work type of died. it died on the third? fourth day of his recovery? it's been exactly a week today iirc... LMAOO ... help me. T__T
anyway so hi! IM ALIVE! watched kpop demon hunters. watched a lot of netflix documentaries. and a lot of the great british baking show. oh and svu. what else. i've been playing a lot of uma and pjsk. I NEED TO CALL MY THERAPY PLACE BACK LATER TODAY SINCE THEY HAVE AVAILABILITY FOR ME. wails and cries and dies. i asked my mom to remind me. she;s been such a great help since i also. well. i also quit my job! since it was way too far of a drive! and there were other things i needed to be met that weren't being met so. it was a really fun experience but i need a desk job. seriously. i do.
but i'm gonna try to cross off everything off my todo list these next few days .. few weeks if it gets to that point.. but i have short term goals i want to have met and i think thats good.
im just soo tired today... might have to go take a nap after i get this update out LOLLL goodnight everyone ^__^ have a good day / night / whatever time it may be for y'all :D take care MWAH
